My Greatest Love

To the woman that loved me before I was born.

To the woman that held my heart long before I had formed.

To the woman who has left sleepless from dusk until dawn,

with weakness upon weakness for nine months long.

Telling herself it would all worth as soon as she rest assure,
for when she finally made that thru to that hospital ward - It was love at first, the second she saw - Me.

I mean, she's the type that would give up her slipper just to make sure my toes were warm.

See, she would always favor me despite the fact that she always needed it more.

She would wake up early every single morning to stand freezing in the cold hanging up the clothes we had worn.

Stand at the stove for hours cooking bowls of food we would swarm.

And when ever we weren't home - her heart would be torn.

I mean she could never sleep whenever we were gone.

She would stay up all night next to the phone, although I would never call, thou she sends me text messages "So please I cant sleep just let know you're safe and secure".

And whenever I was sick, she would always know what was the cure.

I mean the love she gives to me was the best medicine that was pure, a prescription of tea, honey, handmade lemonade - what more could i ask for.

Alhamdulillah! All praise to the Lord!

You did all for me and how once ever I ask for reward.

I mean, i still remember the nights when I was small. I could never go to sleep until i would call to you out from the bedroom door.

Talk me and kiss me please that you always be there for sure.

See, the love you gave to me for all these years it is impossible to ignore.

I love you ya Umma! And I'm sorry I've never told all you these before.

I'm sorry for everything,Mom.

I'm sorry for it all.

Im sorry for leaving you as soon as you taught me how to crawl.

Im sorry for saying 'ooff' every time you would ask me to complete a simple chores. 

It is makes me a less of man, to give you a hand whenever your arms gets sore.

I'm sorry again and again for all the promises i feel short.

And im sorry I cant give you the life you wish for, the car you dreamt of, the countries you wish to explore.

But most of all   im sorry for all that pain that I cause,

for the nights you didnt sleep, and for all those missed calls, for all the fights we had and for all broken words, the dirty room with the messy floor, and for clothes that weren't packed back into the drawers, and for all the sacrifices you made that I never once ever recalled.

Like when you became my mother and make a drift to move away from yours. 

I know how much you love her,  and miss her, and I know  what cuts you deep like a sword but if it wasn't up to me I let you see her as much as I can afford.

So i promise then I make it up to you. And became the daughter that you've always adored, from now on.

So, forgive me.

Forgive me for it all.
Forgive me for everything that i've ever done ever since I was young,stupid, and dumb just looking have fun.

Dear mom, I love you.
I love you!

I promise I that I will never put any body else above you.
No let anybody coming between. And even if I get married I promise you that you'll always be my queen. Because there is no words in this world that can let you know how much you really meant to me.

Nor theres any way in this world that I could every repay you.

So instead i pray everyday for you , that Allah has mercy on you the same way you had mercy on me.
And I have one last request for you before you leave,
"Please, since Allah put paradise beneath your feet, please ask Allah to let paradise be the place where we finally met."

Ameen!


*credit to the owner
This is my favorite poem. Everything about it touches my heart and breaks my heart, for everything tells my unspoken.

My Reaction about Greta Thunderberg

I was fascinated and amazed while watching Greta. She’s fearless and I mostly admired her confident. After watching her video, it is very overwhelming that in a such young age, she can lead a strike to environmental awareness when she should be in school learning and playing with other kids but instead she's playing the role of adults and playing against politics. It's ironic. A sixteen year old kid is doing the responsibility of adults. And even scaring powerful adults because of her good intentions. She’s indeed a role model of her generation.

Greta's video awakened me to know more about the poor condition of our mother nature. I've research more and had knew more. It is not a new story. It is not new and we knew that Nature is dying and climate is badly changing. We are utmost affected. We are mostly to be blamed. It’s alarming that for only 8 years and half CO2 will be gone still we haven’t done anything and keep trashing everything. 

Greta is right. Politics and these money-making-robot people are deaf. They keep on building tall buildings, they keep on cutting tall trees, and keep digging fossil fuels just so we can live in a comfort of Science but at the time we live with the consequences of Science. Now, nature is in crisis and so we are. It is bitter sweet truth. They - we preserve ourselves while destroying  nature. This is crisis and I stand for Greta! If they don’t listened then we need to do it. In our own little ways, we can help our nature restore its beauty and help heal itself. 

Since I’m a student, it is a little impossible for me to joined rallies and strikes for environmental awareness. Instead, in my own little way, I will join service works such clean up drives, tree planting, etc.  Because I am living on the country side I can simply plant trees and seedlings in our backyard, simply living the gardening life. Also, by disciplining myself to observe proper way of waste disposal, and avoiding using plastics. I will also use social media as a tool to give environmental awareness and to promote nature. Perhaps in my little way I can make difference and will have an impact.  

This is not a drill! #NatureNow

#KumanTanoSaMSU

#KumanTanoSaMSU project with our Professor Richard Celeste

#KumanTanoSaMSU the experience took me further to visiting Aga Khan Museum, Pizza treat and Jam Jam Resto and Majestea.

1st visit at Aga Khan Museum and Islamic Arts which was also my first time. I expected there were no significant artifacts but reality amazed me. There were so much to see. It have different significant meranao artifacts such as old satoran, lantacans, old fishing equipments, vintage meranao bed, cultural meranao dress, konlitang, and many more. The designs such a torogan, pagoda like mosques were complementing the meranao vibes in the museum. Aside from the meranao artifacts, it was my first time seeing a real-dead animals like  different kinds of birds and snakes, Philippine eagle eating monkey, tarsier, and more. 

2nd visit at Jam Jam Resto and Majestea. At first we felt embarrassed to approach because they're clueless about the sponsorship and what to do. So we instructed them to offer their best seller foods or what ever they wanted to promote. They serviced us different kinds of pater they offered. The unique feature of their pater is consisting of three rice and two side dishes of customer's choice for only 28pesos which is very syllable and fulfilling. 

Flavorful overload pizza at Pizza Treat

3rd visit at Pizza Treat Delight. Their accommodation is the best. The owner is very welcoming and loved to be sponsored by us. She gave us 2 big pizzas and 1 small pizza to satisfy our cravings. In all fairness, the pizzas were delicious and student budget, we're all satisfied and fulfilled. The prices varies from 130-295 with size of 9" (small) and 14"(big). It is not only their yummy pizza that satisfied us but also the delightful ambiance, the coolness inside, and the watering-smell of pizza all over the room. If I were to rate Pizza Treat , it's 10 out 10.

My Alma mater | Mindanao State University

Main Gate of Mindanao State Univerity
(ctto)

Mindanao State University is not only a beacon of learning and education but also the home of every survivors.

MSU-Main Campus Golf course beautiful scenery

Away from my comfort zone was never been easy, but Mindanao State University became my second home wherein I've  also experienced things I never expected -budgeting my allowance, eating paters successively, hiking far distances from one college to another, being homesick and lonely, being emotionally drained almost 

everyday, eating alone, those sleepless nights, no reviews even it's exam day, meeting terror instructors, meeting new friends, beautiful breathe taking scenery, the cold weather, and many to mentioned experiences . It's exciting how these every day struggles and sacrifices made me who I am right now, it molded my personality, developed my skills. Thanks Mindanao State University! I owe you for who I am now. I thank you for the standard free education and the unforgettable moment of truth with you.

Marawi's Best Trade 2019

Marawi's Best Trade 2019 was a 5-days 

social event from August 27 until August 31 

held at MSU Peace Plaza with a theme 

“Promoting a Culture of Entrepreneurship 

and Innovation towards Peace and Progress 

in Mindanao”. 

This event opened an opportunity to 

Meranao entrepreneurs and student 

entrepreneurs to showcase their creative 

products either food product or non food to a 

massive of potential customers and buyers. 

This event also encouraged everyone to 

opened an entrepreneurial ventures.

The enthusiasm of the event started after 

ribbon cutting leaded by President Habib 

Macaayong and the guest of honor Hon. 

Abdulgani M. Macatoman, with other 

prestigious guests and event organizers. 

Also, the appearance of Jollibee surprised 

the audiences and even made the event 

more jolly. In the preceding days of event, 

there are many people and many customers participating in event and enjoying the vibes while buying.

Overall, the Marawi Best Trade 2019 was successful! Because entrepreneurs gain profit while having a

good time. And also credits to the 

Entrepreneurial Students who also contributed a lot to the event’s success. Congratulations to everybody!

What do you want to be when you grow up?

When I was a little girl my dad asked me
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Little me excitedly said
"I want to be DOCTOR"

When I was highschooler my teacher asked me,
"What is your dream?"
Teenager me puzzledly said
"DOCTOR, or ACCOUNTANT, or ..."

Now that I am an adult,
I asked myself,
"What is my dream?"
Then i pause and reflect.

I asked myself again and again - a thousand times.
What was really my dream? What do i want to be? What I am passionate about? What do I want to achieve? What do i want to accomplish?
A questions that I can't find the answers.

I am now 21 years old and things became more difficult to me. Especially when my friends, my batchmates, and my family living their dream come true. While here I am still wandering and lost in quest of my dream.

From then on, I tend to compare myself, then things became more complicated.

I feel less.

Suddenly, it all comes to me, all the answers to my questions.

My dream is to see my parents dream being fulfilled. For years they've sacrificed everything for me, for the coming years i want to sacrifice everything for them through my strenghts even it takes my sleepless nights.
I want them to be proud of me even i didn't become someday as an Accountant or  an Engineer. I want them to see me as I am- happy, contented, loved, and faithful. My greatest dream is to be with my family as long as we live - growing together for better or for worst.

My realization is that comparing myself to others' achievement will not help me size up and just leads me to resentment. From now, I will look up my own strength to lead me to my own success. Because success comes from those who live contented in the blessings that God has given. Let's us explore ourselves and live based on ourselves. Let's us not bother ourselves who have became an accountant or whatsoever because success comes in different way. For life is not a race to begin with. Just be yourself! 💕