What do you want to be when you grow up?

When I was a little girl my dad asked me
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Little me excitedly said
"I want to be DOCTOR"

When I was highschooler my teacher asked me,
"What is your dream?"
Teenager me puzzledly said
"DOCTOR, or ACCOUNTANT, or ..."

Now that I am an adult,
I asked myself,
"What is my dream?"
Then i pause and reflect.

I asked myself again and again - a thousand times.
What was really my dream? What do i want to be? What I am passionate about? What do I want to achieve? What do i want to accomplish?
A questions that I can't find the answers.

I am now 21 years old and things became more difficult to me. Especially when my friends, my batchmates, and my family living their dream come true. While here I am still wandering and lost in quest of my dream.

From then on, I tend to compare myself, then things became more complicated.

I feel less.

Suddenly, it all comes to me, all the answers to my questions.

My dream is to see my parents dream being fulfilled. For years they've sacrificed everything for me, for the coming years i want to sacrifice everything for them through my strenghts even it takes my sleepless nights.
I want them to be proud of me even i didn't become someday as an Accountant or  an Engineer. I want them to see me as I am- happy, contented, loved, and faithful. My greatest dream is to be with my family as long as we live - growing together for better or for worst.

My realization is that comparing myself to others' achievement will not help me size up and just leads me to resentment. From now, I will look up my own strength to lead me to my own success. Because success comes from those who live contented in the blessings that God has given. Let's us explore ourselves and live based on ourselves. Let's us not bother ourselves who have became an accountant or whatsoever because success comes in different way. For life is not a race to begin with. Just be yourself! 💕